So I am a bit bummed lately because I realize that all I've been able to produce lately are words, which aren't exactly bad but they aren't necessarily easily to impact people the way visual art does.

People are lazy these days, so unless they're looking to read something they won't. whereas if someone came across a picture it could instantly leave an impression, so you can see my dilemma.

I don't know what's more concerning, the fact that I'm in an artistic rut...or the fact that I don't really want to try to get out of it and accepting it as another part of my life that I'm moving past and "growing out of".

It could also be because I really haven't felt like myself lately, it would appear that I am getting sick again, which worries me. I got sick this time last year too and was in and out on doctor's offices and in bed for a total of 3 1/2 months and then still sick thereafter for an additional 3 months.

So throughout the past week I've been praying that the Ulcers, gasto-intestinal infection, heart burn, lung problems, anxiety attacks and 6 month sinus infection doesn't return. Boy it would have been nice if they were looking for a bigger picture instead of diagnosing me with a bunch of little things. It makes me question them especially after my symptoms returning now.

I suppose I should just be grateful, it's possibly it's just a slump and the result of poor diet (again) and lack of exercise. But there's no way I'm letting them put me on medication for all that stuff again because it did more damage than good.

I have seriously lost faith in their medical practice and the health care system, and i'm really frustrated they didn't run x-rays and a cat-scan like they intended to the 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th and 7th time I came back.

So now what?